Cathartic

So...maybe all that stress I have is finally getting to me or maybe because I just love Jaejoong too much...but I really am about to burst into tears. Have you heard LITC at their MC on 092108? Jaejoong's voice cracked. I swear. Jae's voice absolutely never cracks. I've watched MANY of their lives before and it has never happened before. I stopped listening to the performance after that because I felt so sad. Why is he so out of tuned and everything these days? Because he's so damn tired. And now...what's the news we get? He has to film a fuxxing drama. I read somewhere on Soompi that it may be just one episode. But I really don't want him to stress and tire himself any more than he already has. His voice is cracking, damn it! He needs more sleep. As much as I want to see Jaejoong's acting, I really don't want him to sacrifice his health. I'm going to start crying. Ugh. Maybe it's because I feel this way myself. I have enough to do yet it seems I'm just giving myself more. Jaejoong, let's fight through all this together! =D No matter what happens, he needs a break. All of the Dong Bang boys need a break. Honestly, another reason I really don't want him to take up this acting project is because he'll be having so much lesser time with the other boys. I like to see the five gods together. Jaejoong will always be inhuman, beautiful and gifted to me...but the power of five just astounds me.

I've teared up many times just thinking about how tired he will be. Oh man...